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Hey Dad, Hey Dad, it’s been a while since I seen you. You just don’t seem to visit like you use to I’m glad you took the time to stop buy and say hi I have something to say but I’m feeling a bit shy I see you found the new house, did you have any trouble Have you been to see mom, she still lives in that bubble Before I start talking I wanted to see how you were I have something important to say, it’s a bit of a curve When I was younger we spent quality time together Bedtime stories you read as I lay on your sweater As the years passed I spent more time on my own From the age of eight or nine you g

On winding paths I would walk Past rows of houses All built the same The whole way wondering How you would taste Kiss like sugar as I gripped your waist Hands wet with sweat Nerve dried lips That rehearsed words Whispered under sheets Covered by darkness Skin like silk Felt through finger tips I use to shudder As I touched goose bumps That read like a story On your flesh We talked and laughed That night away As pictures framed Your life before me My heart captured forever In the images we made Oh how I miss those days… Days spent framed By door lined halls That's where I would wait Just to see your s

Walk With Me I took a walk alone today It's a thing I sometimes do Yet on this day my walk was filled With things I can't tell you I met a friend along the way And we walked for a while Took a path we use to share I even exchanged a smile We laughed about simple things Then took the time to ponder What would our lives been like Something we will always wonder She held my hand as we reminisced About walks from long ago I felt the warmth that only she could give Now it's guilt that fills my soul She reminded me of what I have today Walks I take for granted So many I took without her there Sometimes that ground seemed slante

A GIFT OF SADNESS (Happy Mothers Day) I was six the first time I remember the pain The damage you did that still feels the same Over the years that passed the pattern repeated To the point in my life that I no longer need it No matter what you did I always came back I did it for dad and to avoid all the flack So now that he's gone there is no longer a reason To put up with the bullshit and limp through the seasons Broken hearted I tried to turn his loss into change I thought you might need me to deal with your pain Yet true to form you went back to your old trusted ways You used guilt as a weapon now it must haunt you each day

I must… bleed so I can live I must, live so I can fail I must, fail so I know triumph I must, triumph so I can grow I must, grow so I can wonder I must, wonder so I have dreams I must, dream so I can do better I must, do better so you will love me... I must, feel love so I can be whole I must, feel whole so I can measure value I must, feel value so I can have worth I must, feel worth so I have reason to breathe I must, breathe so I can bleed I must… bleed so I can live…. C.F. March 31 / 06

Dear Dad, Hi dad, how was your day Did you stop by because you had something to say Come in, you have to see all the work I've done You won't believe that it was all done by your son Its so cold out, has it stopped snowing yet It was just a week ago I was on a jet Marks still at work and the girls are at hockey I'm home alone for now, would you like a coffee I finished this morning, I was up all night I couldn't go to bed till it was all just right There were people all day, on the half hour I slept in the car, I had such a cower I've missed our chats, no time to even say hi So what have you been up to, anyone die We have been

Reflections II Your path was the right one Left, I walk alone now Memories of June tears Turn to November rain I see your image in Random puddles that form Reminders of walks once shared With words that flowed from fingers full of life My journey of lost love… I miss the warmth of your hands Cold and wet now Small steps that dodge Back and forth, in and out Head down I do my best Avoiding wet feet Each puddle different So many reflections Ripples that distort and collide Endless downhill flows Images that collect In pools of sorrow The days are grey without you... I no longer cast a shadow Lost hope of future wal